Down I go

I feel empty and dead inside. Tired, you know. I just want a good long nap and I'd be okay if I just ceased to have been.

I'm not suicidal just hurt, confused, and unappreciated. Like I don't matter.

Good Night

Can a brother get a hook-up

I wanna move to Portland. It is freakin' awesome there. I need Eris to give a brother a hook up with a job. Then I can try to get my friends out that way. THat would be bitchin'

Well I'm boned

I didn't get the job at Tempurpedic. It's not shocking I didn't have the experience they were looking for. I'm not going to get the workstation support role either cause Karen can't get a back fill. Hell she is cutting peoples hours just so they don't get personnel or pay cuts.

I am headed to the electronic unemployment line.

I'm sorta happy about that and sorta bummed. Upside I get time off and the government is going to pay me (at least something). On the down side there is no end in sight and the money won't last forever and this is kinda a shot to the ego.

I have a grill to keep me company though and I have already made chicken and a steak.

Wish me luck. I'm gonna need it.

Hail Eris

The End

The end, as predicted, is coming. As I thought would happen, I have just been informed that unless something changes I am to be Let Go from Lexmark on July 31st. I had prophesied that this would occur on the 31st of the following month so I am nearly a whole month slow but still right. Being right in this case gives me no satisfaction. I will be as noble about this as I can be.

Keep it under your hat if you find this. I'm suppose to keep this secret until the last minute.

Mythical Magical Land of Canadia bitches!

I'm headed to Canada for vacation. I have no idea what all I'm gonna do up there except sight-see and drink.

Working at Lexmark sucks and I want a new job.

Lexmark gets in my way of doing anything the way I want. They don't challenge me or provide me with real work. I don't think i care if I'm here any more. Awesome.

I have helped them as much as they are going to let me help them and now they are not only asking me to help them but they are getting in the way of me helping them.

Time to Go.

Do Unto Others

Rally against those who would possess the world for they are the truly greedy. Let go of your desire for earthly things for in the end they mean nothing. No life has meaning except that which cares for its fellow man. Hold in your heart love for all living things. Know that no person is perfect but the noble strive for all of their life to help others. No man who asks to govern you has your best interests at heart. Trust yourself because without that you can't hope to trust others. Learn what true suffering is and attempt to rid it of yourself and those around you. Encourage people to help others because no man can change the world by themselves.

Live. Love. Create.

Black Thoughts

I am so tired of the people who I perceive to be stupid. I'm tired of people protecting them and helping them. I'm tired of hating them.

I'm tired of a lot of things.

I'm tired of being tired.