Stop worrying and fucking do something

The bad news: you are going to get old, sick and die. If you've missed an opportunity to do something it's gone and you can't go back. You aren't special. There are 6.8 BILLION people on this planet and they all got their start the same way you did; their parents fucked.

There's a fun line: You got fucked into this world, you are gonna get fucked through out your life in a variety of ways and then you are gonna get fucked out of it; learn to like getting fucked.

The good news: you can do damn near anything you want. If you work hard enough, are smart enough and lucky enough there isn't anything you can't do except break the Laws of physics. Even then, there isn't a Judge of physics or a Cop of physics and certainly no Jail of physics so you might as well try to break those Laws. In fact if you figure out how to break Laws of Physics you will get extremely rich and famous.

Much like Stephen Hawking. Now there is a truly awesome mother fucker. Born a healthy normal boy during WWII, nearly died getting bombed by Luftwaffe, Stephen Fucking Hawking would eventually end up in a wheel chair with a unpronounceable disease that has left him almost completely paralyzed.

He has, from his wheel chair, unraveled the mysteries of Time and Space, Blackholes, the creation of the Universe and has predicted how all of everything is going to End.

Stephen Hawking is hardcore. If he can do it so can you.

Learn to be fucking awesome. Never give up. Never stop. Do not listen to anyone that tells you you can't do something.

Try everything. Don't worry about failing. Do anything you want to do. Learn from every experience; yours, your friends, your enemies. Learn history; think of it as a lesson on how other people have fucked up so that you don't have to.

Here is the big one; Think for yourself. This is bloody difficult. We are conditioned to listen to people, do what we are told, and to believe what other people want us to think. Some people are wrong and think they are right, some people lie to get you to do something they want you to do/think/believe, some people hate their life so much they make up stuff to make them feel better. These useless fuckers will tell you you can't do stuff, shouldn't do stuff, or that things you want to do are impossible. Think for yourself. If someone hands you an easy answer but doesn't explain how it solves something that person is probably full of shit. They may mean well, they may be lying to impress you, they may be telling you what they learned and never thought about. If it doesn't make sense ask questions. Demand an explanation.

You have one life. It is small, short and unimportant but it is yours. You won't get another one.

Allo mein twisted monsters

nearly 5 in the morning and full of coffee and reading discordian mantras in the form of strange blogs I have to say that I'm feeling pretty good. I ought to do something creative to get my mind moving. finding inspiration is a little difficult; like unzipping a fish. If nothing else I can unlock the doors of this place and dump all the cobwebs out of my brain.

FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF!

Some jackasses can't take a hint.

I'm at work, my cell phone rings, and I answer.

THEM: "Hi, I'm from the company that warranties your car. Did you know your warranty has expired?"
ME: "I am not interested in anything you are selling, Goodbye."

*click*

10 seconds later the same phone number rings me back. I answer and start talking before they can start.

ME: "What part of 'I'm not interested' don't you get?"

*click*

Amazingly they call back a third time about 2 seconds later. They rush to get their foot in the door.

THEM (obviously upset and hurried): "Sir, I'm not selling anything! I just wanted to make sure you knew that your warranty has expired!"
ME (choking on my own rage) : "I know my warranty expired. Your company sent me 4 post cards explaining that is was expired and tried to sell me a new warranty. The warranty I got with my car wasn't very good and the renewal warranty was even worse PLUS it cost me money. I didn't reply to any of the mail you sent me and I've hung up on you TWICE! What makes you think I care about my warranty AT ALL?!

(this person then said something unthinkably stupid)

THEM: "So you are aware that your warranty has expired? Would you like to renew it?"

(at that point an aneurysm burst in my head and I died)

Aimlessly Adrift

Once in a while
perhaps at great length
I'm given to dither with prose

I scribble and doodle
with stanzas and stout
But none of it good I'll disclose

A purposeless life
is a ship without rudder
Its actions are float, drift or sink

A directionless journey
with no destination
Leaves its crew little recourse but drink

Through the fog and the rain
they keep at their tasks
Though the fear darkened night keeps them wailing

but a light they will find
and somewhere to dock
so long as they've will to keep sailing

to redouble their grip
is the core of their craft
if they want to leave their location

but starving for options
they're left little choice
as they've been pressed to their current vocation

no matter the ship
no matter the crew
we've all a journey to make

either make a choice
on where you would go
or it'll be made inspite of your sake

Jobness

I am obviously less than diligent about updating this.

I heard back from Toyotetsu. They offered me a job for not enough money to move to a place I'd rather not live.

Go Daddy offered me a job for a ton of money to live in the desert which I took.

I am now in the AZ with everything I want except all my friends and family. I'm very excited about the job and I think I'll be able to do okay at it.

I really miss everyone. It really sucks being so far away from the people I love.

Fuck and now fuck it.

You can't care about every damn thing. We'll see how shit shakes loose. I gotta watch my money but fuck i gotta have fun and eat or I'll go bug shit crazy.

Unisys liked me but didn't think I was up to the task; an all to frequent sentiment. I have some responce back from Bonneville Power Admin in portland OR. We'll see if that flies. Steve still has a space on his team but I don't think he wants me since I turned it down a month and half ago.

Fuck it.

FUCK!

I get unemployment but next to nothing. Barely enough to live indoors. That doesn't count food. This fucking blows. Best I can tell I'll have 160ish dollars to eat every month. About 5 bucks a day.

The only hope I have is that the time I spent on unemployment counts and that "they" forgot to count that.

I'm really glad I have savings