Thursday, October 30, 2008

I've re-un-quit

So first I quit.  Then they talked me down and I un-quit.  Then things went really shitty and I re-quit. Now we got my replacement in and she got scared off after one day and they really want me to stay.  This morning I re-un-quit.

Nothing I do is normal.  I can't even quit a job like a normal person.

Hail Eris; Out in space
Punching Assholes in the Face.

Wednesday, October 29, 2008

Fuck damnit!

One day!  One fucking day!  I've scared the crap out of my new windows admin in one ape mascerating day. She has already talked to the contracting liaison about not working here any more and she seems to have made up her mind to get out so quick that she doesn't want to even be here tomorrow.

I am going to catch so much hell from all sides.

I don't know what the heck is going to happen.  I am probably going to be in my windows admin role for a while longer and my future boss might have to fill the position.  We might not be able to get some one else fast.  The was one other candidate but my boss wasn't to stoked about that guy.

Oh well.  We'll see what happens.  I hope this doesn't suck too much.

Monday, October 27, 2008

Two Months give or take forever

I re-quit two months ago.  I've had enough time to reconsider my desciosion, help pick a new person to replace me, get that person hired, tell the old boss I didn't really want to quit any more and go back on my promise to myself that I wouldn't miss the money. Technically we hired her three weeks ago and the background check people took this long to get her cleared and her paper work arranged.

I'm going to get my new chair for about a week and then I'm going to lose it in favor of one of the old crap 1970's chairs. I think I'm going to be able to keep my flat panel and computer. I'm disappointed and relieved at the same time.  Does that make sense to you?

I just want to quit thinking for a few months, hang out with my not-yet girlfriend, and relax.

I need a hug and for a bunch of people to tell me everything is going to be all right and some sex. Not necessarily in that order.

Thursday, October 23, 2008

What is normal?

"Normal is getting dressed in clothes that you buy for work and driving through traffic in a car that you are still paying for - in order to get to the job you need to pay for the clothes and the car, and the house you leave vacant all day so you can afford to live in it."
-- Ellen Goodman (1941 - )

Normal is doing what other people tell you to to get things that other people tell you you want. Normal is making sure the things you've been told you want are better than the things your social groups have. Normal is trying to get a better paying job even if you don't like it. Normal is never being happy where you are and believeing that happiness comes from aquiring new things. Normal is doing what you are expected to do. Normal is following the rules.

Why does anyone want to be normal? The only reason that I can see, immmediately, is that if you aren't normal there are people who get upset and try to make you normal; Which can be boring, painful or terminal.

Tuesday, October 7, 2008

Uncertinty in an uncertain time

The economy is collapsing.  I'm taking a pay cut to go back to an old job.  There's no telling where we're going. Or which way the rower's rowing. I'm burnt out and want a nap.

Here's a theory; I'm a chaos engine. All the crazy stuff that happens in the world and my life comes from me.  When things are extra strange and scary, I get tired from all the energy I unconsciously expend.  Vise versa when things are more normal.

What does it mean when I laugh at the financial situation we are in? Why do I smile and laugh more the more I hear the economist nash and cry? How sick am I in the head or am I sick at all?

Thursday, October 2, 2008

Hail Eris that Bitch!

She does love her little jokes.  Occationally she likes to scare you until your asshole clenches so hard that you can fart a note that can only be heard by dogs. The important point is they let me go. Remember to make sure your tail lights work.