Monday, August 25, 2008

I've requit

After the horrible debockle of this weekend I've come to a greater appreciation for how happy I was at my old job and so I have re-quit.   I'll be moving back to Karen's Team.  Karen's okay with it, Walt is okay with it, Kelly is okay with it, Erin is okay with it and I'll be happy again so I'll be okay with it.  I won't even miss the money. Every time I start to miss the money I'll remember the stress I no longer have and the ability to relax that I've regained and everything will be okay.

The moral of this story is that just because people think the bigger job with the more money and increased responsibilities is what you ought to do doesn't mean they are right. Just because they are trapped in a cycle of pointless careerism and are striving to do more doesn't mean I should also. Happiness and personal well being is more important to me than following the societal pressures to do stuff that causes me stress and makes me contemplate killing myself.

Yeah I thought about it in a sort of hap-hazard way. The stress is that bad.  Don't worry.  I'm okay now.  I'm taking care of the problem and will be alright.

Now I will hopefully have enough energy after work to get in better shape.  Maybe start dating again. Daydream. Write. Make Art.

Who Knows. The World is my oyster and I'm starting to get hungry again.

Friday, August 15, 2008

I've un-quit

My Boss talked me down off the ledge.  He's going to let me change my job around so I don't go crazy ... er. More insane. On the upside I'm not a quiter and I'll keep getting the awesome money and I get to rework my job so I feel better. I'm taking the weekend off and jetting to Indy for GenCon.

Hail Eris

Wednesday, August 13, 2008

Thats all I can take

Well I sorta quit today.

I called up my old boss and asked if she had a job opening. She did and told me to talk to my current boss and see if it was cool if I changed jobs. I talked to my current boss and told him I'm fried and that my old boss had a job opening. He told me that he'll need to work out some sort of deal with the old boss for support coverage but that he knew I'd been struggling to keep it together. He told me he hated to see me go and thanked me for my work. It is pretty much a sure thing that I'll get a job with my old boss.

The pay loss is gonna be pretty bad. I also feel kinda crappy about not being able to cope but I think I was being asked to work to hard; not only for the pay but just personally.

However I'll only be doing 1 job for the money instead of 5. If you look at it by percentage then this is awesome. Mostly the reason I'm doing this is that I won't have the stress or the demand. 40 hours, 8 to 5 and not a bit more. The money is great for the job and the work is very easy. I'm depressed but i'll get over that and the first month of good sleep and I'll be great.

Hail Eris

Wednesday, August 6, 2008

London bridge isn't the only thing falling down

The housing market was in a slump until recently when the biggest mortgage financiers reported recorded losses and the market when from a slump to a flaming shit spiral. Freddie Mac and Fannie Mae; yes that is the name of the two largest governmentally backed mortgage companies, are actually worth negative money.  That means that if you sold everything they own off and fired everyone you'd still owe their creditors 5.8 billion dollars.

This along with the energy fucking nightmare ( crisis not being sufficient) suggests that the US is facing not just troubled times but a depression so massive that the the Great One we had 80 years ago will seem reasonable.

Greed and corruption plus short sighted good intentions and incompetent fumble fingered leadership is going to jettison our grand country into 3rd world status ripe for take over. Buy guns, ammo, and food folks.  We are in for a heck of a ride. Especially if a majority of Americans don't have skills that are independent on technology.

I'm glad I know how to raise and butcher animals.  I need to learn some basic farming.

This would be the entropy side of being a discordian.  The part that involves laughing as the system breaks down. Giggling as the law and order freaks watch the tatters of their civilization shred themselves because of mismanagement and abuse. Playing while everyone who can't change and adapt cries "why me" and doesn't do anything. Smiling a mirthless self-satisfied smile as balance reassert itself.  We are coming to a time when we have to change, adapt and overcome our ignorances and pride.

Hail Eris!

I'm burnt

I am once again burnt out on work.  I just don't have the impetus to get anything but the most trivial of chores done. Right now all I want to do is react to problems instead of working on any projects. ::sigh::

Once I get this major project done I can take a vacation. ... so that I can leave this mess and have it still be here and worse when I get back.  It's like I live in a house with a bunch of other people and they have no responsibility to keep the house clean but I do.  They'll get angry at me if i don't do the dishes while they are busy dirtying dishware.