I feel sick. I don't know what to do. I don't know why this is. I don't know how to help fix it. I don't know what is true, false, or my own hope biased opinions. Worse I can't see into the future and see what the results of this are going to be though my cynicism leads me to many horrible potential outcomes.
We have mass media setting inscrutable arbitrary standards to exclude candidates from important debates. From what I've heard the people who make the voting machines refuse to reveal the programming behind them. We have news sources reporting projections as facts.
Some part of me just wants the drink the kool-aide and go back to sleep so I can dream the American dream. Another part of me is disgusted that I could think about giving up and ashamed of such cowardly thoughts. And most of the rest of me is scared for what is going to happen in the future.